just sTone

No title Jan 2, 2008 1:56 AM

Yesterday I went to the basketball court, and when I practiced my shooting skill a little boy just fell into talk with me. "May I play one on one with you?" Though I am under 160cm, but he is only about to my waist. So I refused.

Then he challenged again, "How about a ladder game?" Anyway I started playing with him. How interesting this experience was, and the most interesting part of it is especially on the New Year's Eve.

Today I felt a little depressed when I found out that Mom still treat me like an outsider. Maybe I am only a lodger in this house.

I always wear like a guy, talking like a guy, behaving totally like a guy. Is it the reason Mom treats me like that? It is plain that in the lifetime I have no chance to be her son just like my younger brother. I am the solitary one in this family. All the things are due to my choice.

I left a message about my dream of Jay on the BBS site; she saw it and she said that some part of my dream was true. I love this coincidence very much, because it seemed like to have some connection with her.